My Two Cents
by Alba Dwass

The assignment Rabbi Alder gave us this past summer was difficult. The more I thought about it, the more it became obvious that a single book never changed my life the way other forms of art did. It seems far easier for me to find a painting, a movie, or a record that had the power to reshape my journey and impact my lifestyle. Because of one song, I really wanted to be able to understand the English language, and it has become the language I use most often. Because of one movie, I really wanted to visit New York, and here I have been living for the past two decades. But Rabbi Alder asked us to think about a book, so I am going to write about a book that did not change my life as I turned its last page, but that has been present at different stages of my life.

The Adventures of Pinocchio, written by Carlo Collodi, is a book I have read numerous times and I can quote almost as well as Phil Rothman can quote the Harry Potter series. First published in 1881 in an Italian magazine for children, The Adventures of Pinocchio was later completed and published as a book, soon to become a classic of Italian literature for children.

Before I could read, The Adventures of Pinocchio was read to me, and I can still see myself laughing my head off as my sister read the first hilarious pages describing the fight between Master Cherry and Geppetto. Then, growing up I reread the book several times, first inspired by the reissue of the Disney movie in 1971 (I didn’t like the movie, my first act of cinema criticism, a discipline I would eventually major in in college), and then by a beloved television series directed by Luigi Comencini (for which I entered a drawing contest and was awarded a poster that remained for years one of my most prized possessions). In the late ‘70s, as a teenager, the inspiration to reread the book came from the songwriter Edoardo Bennato, who retold the story of a stringless Pinocchio in an anti-establishment album. The pain I first felt as a young child listening to how easily Fox and Cat deceived Pinocchio and took all his money became a cry against a social system that treated you like a puppet and exploited your desire to be like everyone else. As I sang Bennato’s songs and protested in front of my school, I felt Pinocchio had been cheated into becoming a real boy and convinced to change his authentic nature. Is it because of Pinocchio that in the following years I felt free to explore the world and look for my own vision of it instead of viewing it only through the lens of a “normality” offered by the dominant culture (the “videocracy” being fed to us by Mr. Berlusconi on his way to becoming Italian Prime Minister)? I cannot say it was The Adventures of Pinocchio that made me what I am, no more that the dozens of other books I read in those formative years, but the story of a puppet who wants to be good and struggles to find his way to goodness, has always been a point of reference to me.

When my first child was born and a beautifully illustrated copy of Le Avventure di Pinocchio arrived for her in the mail from Italy, I wondered if I could ever be able to teach her how to fluently read the warm Tuscan sounds pouring out of the page, fully grasp the only apparent simplicity of Collodi’s language, feel the nostalgia for the settings depicting a young nation and its hopes. So I read the book to her, and then to her and her brother, several times over the years and just this past summer we eagerly listened to a reading performed by Paolo Poli on the Italian radio.

Reading the book again and again as a parent has been extremely interesting for me. At first I didn’t identify with Pinocchio anymore, but with Geppetto and the Fairy. To me, Pinocchio was now the product of poor parenting. I found myself harshly condemning Geppetto for the choice of sending Pinocchio alone on the first day of school instead of accompanying him to protect him from possible danger. Or, I found myself questioning the Fairy’s disciplinary methods when she lets the poor Pinocchio stand in the cold the whole night with his foot stuck in the door. As I kept rereading the book to my children and as they were becoming more and more independent from me and their father, I started arguing with myself. How could I judge Geppetto and the Fairy? After all, did I really know what I was doing as a parent? Is there a way to gauge how well I prepared my children to face the world? Shifting my position and starting to identify Pinocchio as one of my children, a new set of questions emerged. I asked myself if I was allowing them the freedom Pinocchio has. The thought was scary. Will they rebel the way Pinocchio does? Will they ignore the Talking Cricket‘s advice? Will they scuffle as much to find what they really want to be? Will they learn from their mistakes or simply make them again and again?

As my daughter is approaching the age I was when I protested in front of my high school and became determined not to be a puppet in someone else’s hands (my parents’ hands), I now identify with Pinocchio once again. This past summer, listening to Poli’s friendly sounding voice, I realized this was the first time in a while someone was reading The Adventures of Pinocchio to me. No longer the interpreter, I could just enjoy the story. Hearing every bad choice Pinocchio makes and how he is given a new chance to do better after he repents made me think, just as the High Holidays drew closer, of my missed marks. After Geppetto and Pinocchio are reunited in the belly of the Shark and escape from it, they are helped by a Tuna who had also been captured in the belly of the sea monster. When Pinocchio recognizes him and asks how had he managed to escape, the Tuna answers, “I followed your example. You showed me the way and I escaped after you did.” Making the right choice doesn’t only impact us and our families, but the community at large and helps building it. Listening to how Pinocchio embraces his new life of happiness after having made a series of good choices, I could not help but remember one of Phil’s most quoted Professor Dumbledore’s statements from Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, “It is our choices Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.”